Monday 23 June 2008

home...

being back in kuching is great. i forgot hows it feel to justchill at home. i dont have much things to do but just being home is just wonderful...

anyway yesterday a group of friends of mine and i woke up at 4smth in the morning just to go down to the beach and have some photo shoot. it was a mixture of fun, excitement and also it is tiring. thanks to phil's cousin shen han and his friend who is most willing to be there to take pictures of us before phil leaves...thank you =) apparently i met shen han a few years back when i followed a friend to a church camp and after a few years i met him again and he is phil's cousin, how ironic. well he is a professional photographer and i just cant wait to see the pictures that we took. when phil send me the pics then only i'll upload it in here..

i never know that doing this will be this tiring...what an experience.k im going to bed now..

Saturday 14 June 2008

its been awhile...

it has been awhile that ive not update my blog. going through what i've wrote back then really makes me think that goodness me i've really grown.

just awhile ago i read what i wrote before which is my previous post. goodness me those post that i posted really made me smile. i smiled not because it was funny or anything but it brought back memories. i didnt realise that i have changed so much.before i got this job i thought that i was strong as a person who makes good decision and most of all i thought i was really matured but only now that i realise that it is not true. the pictures that was taken few months back says it all. i look so young and naive. goodness me, and i always thought that i was mature. well i guess there is alot that i have to find out about myself.

i wont say that i have fully grown but i kinda enjoy being a 22 year old, or sometimes i even act like as if i am still in my teens. but of cos when i put on my uniform i do not act such ways.putting on my uniform somehows allow me to wear a mask which is totally not me, or i guess it just comes with the job =)

it was just the other that a collegue of mine telling me that i can never date an older guy cos i am being so immature. that line made me smile. im not ashame to be one cos i feel that if it makes me happy, why not? it doesnt bring any harm so i guess its ok for me to continue doing so =p but to be honest it just comes naturally. i guess i'll just let myself grown slowly as time passes by. there's always time for everything